rough patches

everyone falls into rough patches, everyone. i feel like i do all the time, but it's through them that i find out what i'm made of. if i thought i was amazing, i probably wouldn't work that hard. if i thought i was as good as i assume i'm not, i would dare say i didn't deserve to be writing in the first place.

lucky me, i don't think i'm good...mostly all the time. i can appreciate it after, but while i'm mid-paragraph, i am full of "should i even be able given this opportunity?" and "is anyone ever going to read this?" or "is this even second-grade writing level?".... it is a struggle to be in my head. i feel sorry for the little men and women who work in the factory in that part of my brain, haha.

i'm writing a new book... i have abandoned ship on Serial Monogamist... not forever, just so that this new one can be my debut novel. it's exciting and scary all at the same time. "debut novel" sounds like the coolest thing ever right now... and that, ladies and gentlemen is why i am a nerd.

i went to my grandparents' house tonight for my grandpa's 75th birthday, and i brought a book with me to read... a new elin hilderbrand hardback. i took off the cover and held the hard book in my hands...and i dreamed.

i cannot wait  to hold a book that i've written in my hands. i cannot wait, i tell you. all the labor, the love, the drafts, the research, the relationships, the questions asked and the questions answered...i'm smiling so big right now! just take my word for it.

i think i might make my own when i know it's the finished copy... just because i like to bind books. another nerdy thing. i think it would be so cool to have it with my own special cover, one that says "this is truly one of a kind".

i'll show it to you when i'm done...in a couple months (book has to be written first!!!) :)

have a great week!

ashlyne huff revelette 

ps. visit me again this week and i'll share a crazy idea i had for this new book! i'll give you a hint, it has something to do with MUSIC!